Archive for October, 2007
Is it just lazyness?
It doesnt seem like I can get anything done of late. I havent graded papers, Im not keeping up with projects at work, the grass isnt mowed, my office is in shambles. The problem is when I get home Im so tired I just want to plop on the couch and watch TV.
There is nothing wrong with TV. With great shows like ‘Life‘ ‘Chuck‘ and ‘The Unit’ Its no wonder I get anything done at all.
So what is a guy to do? Somehow I need to manage my time better and make sure I am prioritizing my day. Intellectually I know this, but I am not doing it. Thats when the “im lazy” monicer starts to creep into my mind. But why now, why when im in my 30’s? Why am I suddenly gaining weight?
I dont think Im Lazy, I think Ive lost some focus.
My pastor has been teaching about ‘Chazown’ (im not sure Ive spelled it right) and he points to our vision for our lives. Is that it, Ive lost focus? Wow, a friend awhile back said that he felt I had not finished my dissertation yet because I was afraid too. Fear, lack of vision?
Ok sport, so how do you regain vision? How do you say “my life has purpose, this is what Im here for!!!??”
I dont know, but I can try.